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[ July 23rd, 2009 � 3:01pm ] |
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why am i so jealous
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[ June 27th, 2009 � 10:57am ] |
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i've got to get back on track,
cos the worst thing is loving someone who doesn't love you back.
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| livejournal. |
[ August 5th, 2008 � 9:40pm ] |
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this journal it is live.
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| not that it matters, but... |
[ June 8th, 2008 � 8:55pm ] |
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oh, of course! i'm totally cool, totally cool with it, it's chill, i don't even mind, it's no problem, no problem at all, so chill, cool, cool, cool, cool, oh so awesome, yeah totally uh huh!
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| huh.. |
[ May 10th, 2008 � 1:20pm ] |
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why did you do that
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| ding dong |
[ April 27th, 2008 � 11:04pm ] |
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it's hella easier to just live your life in tunnel vision. just living your life by rote, going through the motions everyday without stopping to think. it's pretty chill.
but at the same time it scares me, because the more i do that, the more i feel like i'm completely wasting my life.
i'm so pointlessly introspective sometimes.
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| loss. |
[ April 20th, 2008 � 10:37pm ] |
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what happened to us?
i find myself at a loss for words.
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| Forgetting Sarah Marshall. |
[ April 19th, 2008 � 12:15pm ] |
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Tired as hell. Saw Forgetting Sarah Marshall last night. It was pretty funny. Don't know if it was as good as Superbad though. But yea, got home at like 1:30, didn't fall asleep until around 5. I've been losing a lot of sleep lately. It's weird. It doesn't matter what time I climb into bed, my body just won't shut down. I have work today at 3. It's a 6-hour shift. Six hours of my mind being completely blank. I'm actually looking forward to it.
On another note.
Just how long can I keep this up?
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| wishful thinking. |
[ April 15th, 2008 � 10:57pm ] |
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I keep watching these stupid chick flicks. Everything's so perfect and just right in them. When I watch them It's like for that hour and a half I can forget about everything else and live in the movie.
Why am i such a girl.
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| seep. |
[ April 14th, 2008 � 10:24pm ] |
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I've been trying desperately to keep myself constantly busy for the last week to keep it at bay, but somehow it always seeps back into my mind.
I want to amputate my brain. -_-
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[ April 12th, 2008 � 11:15pm ] |
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I think I'm sick now. I have a sore throat.
I hate sore throats. Especially the kinds where it not only hurts when you swallow, but it's also constantly scratchy. It feels like I swallowed a cactus. This sore throat makes my voice sound really deep and crackly. It's strange. The worst part about it is that I can't eat things. I like to eat things.
Go away sore throat.
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| disappear. |
[ April 9th, 2008 � 9:49pm ] |
If you're lost, you can look -- and you will find me
time after time.
If you fall, I will catch you -- I'll be waiting
time after time.
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| brain. |
[ April 7th, 2008 � 11:03pm ] |
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It would be cool if you could allow people into your head just for a second.
Because sometimes there's just too much shit in there to convey.
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| knockout punch. |
[ April 6th, 2008 � 9:26pm ] |
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It had to happen sooner or later.
Suddenly I find myself questioning whether or not this really is the right thing to do. And it all comes down to picking my battles again. How much do I really want this?
A lot.
But in the end, I know I'm going to let it slip away. Damn you, morals. Damn you.
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| change. |
[ April 5th, 2008 � 3:16pm ] |
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My coworker Lance is kind of a jerk. Last night at work he ratted on me for "not being on task". Except that I was. The managers came to talk to me and asked me to concentrate on my job. Lance isn't even a manager. Where does he get off deciding whether or not I'm doing my job correctly?
But anyways, what really bothers me is the way I reacted to it. A few weeks ago I think i would have been really angry. I probably would have defended myself. I probably would have bitched out Lance. But I didn't, I just stood there and nodded while my managers scolded me. And suddenly I realized i was just tired. I'm too tired to get all worked up about everything, I just don't have the energy for it. I have other, more important things to worry about and there's just too many of them for me to blow up about every single one. I don't know where I found the firepower to fight every single battle just a few weeks ago. I've learned to pick my battles, I guess. But i don't know if i like that.
On another note,
When doing the right thing sucks so much, it's hard to stay motivated. It seems stupid, almost, that all this crap you're muddling through is self-inflicted.
But whatever. It's the least I can do.
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| early. |
[ April 4th, 2008 � 2:38pm ] |
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So I woke up today freaking early to visit Lynbrook with Allyson. It was alright. It was good to see everyone again. Didn't talk to that many people, though. Said hi to Scott, Vyas, etc... then decided there wasn't anything else to do so headed home. I feel so grumpy right now, and I don't know why. It's 2:45 now and I've been sitting around wasting time doing nothing at all since like 11. It's weird that I want school to start again. I don't really like having time to think about things.
I have work in like two hours. Believe it or not, I'm looking forward to it. Something to do, I guess.
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| dream. |
[ April 2nd, 2008 � 11:37pm ] |
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So I have this dream, and it's like this:
I'm sitting on the bank of a river and there's a little raft floating slightly in front of me, and there's something on it, something I can't see. I don't know what it is, but for some reason I want it. But I know I can't, there's something holding me back. Something tells me I've had my chance at this thing already, and it isn't right for me to take it all for myself. As if somehow I know that it's meant to drift away from me... almost like I know there's someone else that's meant to pick it up. But it just hovers there... maybe it's moving away slowly, or maybe even moving closer. I can't tell. The only thing I know is that I'm stuck on this damn riverbank looking at this thing and knowing I CANT reach out for it.
A strange and random dream, no?
But the scary part is, I know exactly what it means.
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[ November 26th, 2007 � 10:21pm ] |
don't blink, don't close your eyes
but most of all,
don't apologize
it's me who's got the demons
to wrestle now.
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[ November 12th, 2007 � 8:55pm ] |
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when you come to realize that half the crap you complain about other people doing you do yourself, it's kind of a slap in the face
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| poot |
[ October 22nd, 2007 � 10:57am ] |
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today i was chilling and then i farted
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| omg like what |
[ October 12th, 2007 � 11:05am ] |
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there's some lint in my pocket. i think i'll throw it away. it's blue.
right now i am typing.
my belt, it is green
green is a mixture of blue and yellow
blue used to be my favorite color but not anymore
now i don't have a favorite color
oh no
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| huh |
[ October 2nd, 2007 � 3:18pm ] |
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i like. don't know what i want, for once.
weird
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| eyes |
[ October 1st, 2007 � 11:01am ] |
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how come my eyes are so small
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| jew lie seck und |
[ July 2nd, 2007 � 11:00pm ] |
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today i biked uphill alot to manish's house and then we messed around and then we played ping pong and then we watched videos and then i played guitar hero and then we jammed and it sounded bad because the amp sucked and then i biked home which was downhill because it was uphill on the way there and then i recorded a song and then i typed a livejournal entry and it went like this: today i biked uphill alot to manish's house and then we messed around and then we played ping pong and then we watched videos and then i played guitar hero and then we jammed and it sounded bad because the amp sucked and then i biked home which was downhill because it was uphill on the way there and then i recorded a song and then i typed a livejournal entry and it went like this: today i biked uphill alot to manish's house and then we messed around and then we played ping pong and then we watched videos and then i played guitar hero and then we jammed and it sounded bad because the amp sucked and then i biked home which was downhill because it was uphill on the way there and then i recorded a song and then i typed a livejournal entry and it went like this:today i biked uphill alot to manish's house and then we messed around and then we played ping pong and then we watched videos and then i played guitar hero and then we jammed and it sounded bad because the amp sucked and then i biked home which was downhill because it was uphill on the way there and then i recorded a song and then i typed a livejournal entry and it went like this:today i biked uphill alot to manish's house and then we messed around and then we played ping pong and then we watched videos and then i played guitar hero and then we jammed and it sounded bad because the amp sucked and then i biked home which was downhill because it was uphill on the way there and then i recorded a song and then i typed a livejournal entry and it went like this:today i biked uphill alot to manish's house and then we messed around and then we played ping pong and then we watched videos and then i played guitar hero and then we jammed and it sounded bad because the amp sucked and then i biked home which was downhill because it was uphill on the way there and then i recorded a song and then i typed a livejournal entry and it went like this:today i biked uphill alot to manish's house and then we messed around and then we played ping pong and then we watched videos and then i played guitar hero and then we jammed and it sounded bad because the amp sucked and then i biked home which was downhill because it was uphill on the way there and then i recorded a song and then i typed a livejournal entry and it went like this:today i biked uphill alot to manish's house and then we messed around and then we played ping pong and then we watched videos and then i played guitar hero and then we jammed and it sounded bad because the amp sucked and then i biked home which was downhill because it was uphill on the way there and then i recorded a song and then i typed a livejournal entry and it went like this:today i biked uphill alot to manish's house and then we messed around and then we played ping pong and then we watched videos and then i played guitar hero and then we jammed and it sounded bad because the amp sucked and then i biked home which was downhill because it was uphill on the way there and then i recorded a song and then i typed a livejournal entry and it went like this:today i biked uphill alot to manish's house and then we messed around and then we played ping pong and then we watched videos and then i played guitar hero and then we jammed and it sounded bad because the amp sucked and then i biked home which was downhill because it was uphill on the way there and then i recorded a song and then i typed a livejournal entry and it went like this:today i biked uphill alot to manish's house and then we messed around and then we played ping pong and then we watched videos and then i played guitar hero and then we jammed and it sounded bad because the amp sucked and then i biked home which was downhill because it was uphill on the way there and then i recorded a song and then i typed a livejournal entry and it went like this:today i biked uphill alot to manish's house and then we messed around and then we played ping pong and then we watched videos and then i played guitar hero and then we jammed and it sounded bad because the amp sucked and then i biked home which was downhill because it was uphill on the way there and then i recorded a song and then i typed a livejournal entry and it went like this:today i biked uphill alot to manish's house and then we messed around and then we played ping pong and then we watched videos and then i played guitar hero and then we jammed and it sounded bad because the amp sucked and then i biked home which was downhill because it was uphill on the way there and then i recorded a song and then i typed a livejournal entry and it went like this:today i biked uphill alot to manish's house and then we messed around and then we played ping pong and then we watched videos and then i played guitar hero and then we jammed and it sounded bad because the amp sucked and then i biked home which was downhill because it was uphill on the way there and then i recorded a song and then i typed a livejournal entry and it went like this:today i biked uphill alot to manish's house and then we messed around and then we played ping pong and then we watched videos and then i played guitar hero and then we jammed and it sounded bad because the amp sucked and then i biked home which was downhill because it was uphill on the way there and then i recorded a song and then i typed a livejournal entry and it went like this:today i biked uphill alot to manish's house and then we messed around and then we played ping pong and then we watched videos and then i played guitar hero and then we jammed and it sounded bad because the amp sucked and then i biked home which was downhill because it was uphill on the way there and then i recorded a song and then i typed a livejournal entry and it went like this:today i biked uphill alot to manish's house and then we messed around and then we played ping pong and then we watched videos and then i played guitar hero and then we jammed and it sounded bad because the amp sucked and then i biked home which was downhill because it was uphill on the way there and then i recorded a song and then i typed a livejournal entry and it went like this:today i biked uphill alot to manish's house and then we messed around and then we played ping pong and then we watched videos and then i played guitar hero and then we jammed and it sounded bad because the amp sucked and then i biked home which was downhill because it was uphill on the way there and then i recorded a song and then i typed a livejournal entry and it went like this:today i biked uphill alot to manish's house and then we messed around and then we played ping pong and then we watched videos and then i played guitar hero and then we jammed and it sounded bad because the amp sucked and then i biked home which was downhill because it was uphill on the way there and then i recorded a song and then i typed a livejournal entry and it went like this:today i biked uphill alot to manish's house and then we messed around and then we played ping pong and then we watched videos and then i played guitar hero and then we jammed and it sounded bad because the amp sucked and then i biked home which was downhill because it was uphill on the way there and then i recorded a song and then i typed a livejournal entry and it went like this:today i biked uphill alot to manish's house and then we messed around and then we played ping pong and then we watched videos and then i played guitar hero and then we jammed and it sounded bad because the amp sucked and then i biked home which was downhill because it was uphill on the way there and then i recorded a song and then i typed a livejournal entry and it went like this:today i biked uphill alot to manish's house and then we messed around and then we played ping pong and then we watched videos and then i played guitar hero and then we jammed and it sounded bad because the amp sucked and then i biked home which was downhill because it was uphill on the way there and then i recorded a song and then i typed a livejournal entry and it went like this:today i biked uphill alot to manish's house and then we messed around and then we played ping pong and then we watched videos and then i played guitar hero and then we jammed and it sounded bad because the amp sucked and then i biked home which was downhill because it was uphill on the way there and then i recorded a song and then i typed a livejournal entry and it went like this:today i biked uphill alot to manish's house and then we messed around and then we played ping pong and then we watched videos and then i played guitar hero and then we jammed and it sounded bad because the amp sucked and then i biked home which was downhill because it was uphill on the way there and then i recorded a song and then i typed a livejournal entry and it went like this:today i biked uphill alot to manish's house and then we messed around and then we played ping pong and then we watched videos and then i played guitar hero and then we jammed and it sounded bad because the amp sucked and then i biked home which was downhill because it was uphill on the way there and then i recorded a song and then i typed a livejournal entry and it went like this:
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| 5 minutes later. |
[ June 28th, 2007 � 10:08am ] |
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ok it's been 3 minutes since my last entry and now i' ve got something to blog.
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